What Do You Hold On To?

  In Tim O'Brien's The Things They Carried, the American soldiers in the Vietnam War all carried specific things that were significant to them. All items acted as a source for recalling certain memories that they held dear to. I personally have certain things that I cannot go without, they are categorized into "A Physical Item", "Dreams/Goals", "Relationship", "Personality", and "Memories".
  A Physical Item: I can't seem to be left without a form of writing utensil for more than a day, though it is not to be used for writing, it is used to draw. It calms me and releases my stress whenever I draw what I like, though I don't exactly have to draw something, just carrying a pencil gives a sense of self-assurance. Other things seems to be something that I would unconsciously carry daily, though it might feel different or uncomfortable without them, they don't seem to stand out as much when I think back on what I've done at the end of the day.
  Dreams/Goals: There are many things that I would like to accomplish or acquire, and they all require getting a job that I would enjoy with a good pay. So, I guess my goal would be to graduate college with a major that I'd like and get a job that would reward me with a peaceful life. I won't ask something extravagant or extraordinary, being normal and away from outbursts of the society is enough to keep me satisfied.
  Relationship: I would say that my older sister is like my supporter and the back bone of my life so far. We're only 2 years apart, so she doesn't really count as a role model or inspiration, we've always helped each other out equally. Though, she really is more outstanding than me academically, it's reassuring to know that I can go to her for assistance on homework and assignments. I also help her out regarding general problems in today's society, we can discuss things pretty well, this is why she's an important supporter to me.

  Personality: Stubborn, doubtful, complex. These are the three adjectives I would use to describe myself. On the outside, I may nod and agree with what others have to say, but I'm quite stubborn on the inside, it'd take a lot to convince me to think otherwise about things "I know I'm right". It always takes me a long time to actually open up to people, though I may seem open on the outside. This habit of being doubtful towards others is probably just me being afraid of finding someone with a similar personality to mine. The first two adjectives kind of explains why I'm complex, though I sometimes jokingly say it's because I'm a Gemini. Though, my indecisiveness and change in attitudes towards certain people definitely explains it.

  Memories: I really don't recall the main memory that impacted me. Though, my personality did change drastically at some point. This type of memory would explain my established personality and point of view on the society, people in general.